I Am A Dreamer

I have a confession to make.

I am a dreamer. I was born to dream, imagine and believe that my dreams would come true. Some of them have. Some of them are yet to be.

I remember as I was growing up, when I would tell my dad of something I wanted to do or make, he would say pessimistically, “You’re just dreaming again, Jeanie.” Every time I heard that, it made me shrink inside. It was an awful feeling.  I would tuck that particular dream away, deep in my heart in a secret place. Every once in a while, I would take that dream out and hold it carefully, lovingly, as if to say, ‘it’s all right. I’ll make you real one day’.

My husband once called me a dreamer in a very derogatory way. I looked at him and smiled. I told him that I thought that was it one of my very best qualities. Never again will I allow anyone to make me feel less than because I am a dreamer. Some of the most amazing people who have lived on this planet have been dreamers. Walt Disney was ridiculed when he wanted to create Disneyland. Shakespeare also had his critics as did Edison, Tesla and Madame Curie.

Some of my childhood dreams did come true because I kept them alive, safely tucked away in my heart. Ever since I learned about horses, I have loved them. Their scent is like an aphrodisiac to me. I love it!   Somewhere there is a picture of me, about three years old, of a horse leaning its head down over a fence so I could pet it. I had no fear of these magnificent animals.

When I graduated from high school in 1971, I got a baby-sitting job that paid $40 a week. I saved my money so I could buy a horse. When I had enough, I began to look for the perfect one for me. I found one I really liked. She was a green-broke two-year old, half Appaloosa and half Thoroughbred filly. At the time, she had a winter coat of white hair with a black mane and tail. When she shed out, she was a beautiful red roan with black stockings. I named her Sheiba. We had many adventures together before I sold her years later to a sweet girl who feel in love with her as I had.

Recently, I was reminded of a dream that I had tucked away in that secret room in my heart, forgotten and unrealized. This dream still makes my heart sing and envelopes me in a desire to bring it to fruition. It is so big that it scares me a bit, yet it also excites me when I think of it and all the possibilities.

I have visualized each part of it until it is as real in my mind as I can make it feel. My dream is to have a parcel of land, created into a sanctuary for women to come to, to experience nature. There are areas where women can mediate safely without fear of being disturbed. A large common room with a stage with a commercial kitchen attached for events is also there. There are cabins for women to stay in, classes for them to take in raw food preparation, the Divine Feminine, belly dancing, public speaking, spirituality and so much more. A stable with wonderful horses to ride, hiking trails for walking meditations and a fire pit for stories told around the fire and of course, drumming. Special retreats and women-connecting events would happen as well as space for individual women to come and escape for a while.

This beautiful place exists fully within me. I now visit it frequently and experience how good it feels. I want to bring it out into the physical realm. Women who I have shared this vision with showed their excitement as they saw the truth of my dream and how they would love to experience such a place. And never once have I heard within me a male voice saying, “You’re dreaming, Jeanie.”

I now consider myself to be a visionary, a visionary on a mission to bring this dream into reality, for the benefit of women. I don’t know where it will end up being. I am trusting in the Divine to show me the perfect place for it. I know that when all is aligned, the money I need for it and the land will be presented to me.

So, I ask you, what dreams have you been hiding in your heart, tucked away far from ridicule and negativity? Isn’t it time for you to bring them out into the light of Creator so they can manifest into the material realm? You wouldn’t have them if you weren’t supposed to create them. Don’t allow fear to keep you from your dreams.

There’s no time like the present for your dream and mine. Let’s do this!