I thought I might get some course work done today, but now I’m not so sure. Too many other thoughts filling my head keep any cohesive reflecting ideas at bay. Memories flow like water downhill, passing just as quickly in my mind. At times tears rundown my face, a manifestation from my thoughts. I just watch, doing my best just to be the observer of the activity in my head.
As this unexpected life review streams across the inner screen, I ponder ways I can create better memories through actions of today and all the tomorrows left for me to experience, more life, more lessons and more love. There are many possibilities for me to choose to experience and much more of life to savor and dive deeply into.
These memories allow me to see where I’ve been and choose better choices going forward from here. Twenty-nine years of living another’s idea of how I should live my life has left me hungry for my image of what my life will become. There are places I want to see, new people to meet and more time with the ones who mean the most to me. You see, when we die, all we have are the memories from our life.
Gathering my life experiences is perfect for this time of year, Fall and harvest time. I look back on this year, it’s gone by so quickly. But the seeds I have sown in my life are now bringing in abundance. The time I have spent working on my inner self is now manifesting in my outer world. I get to see my efforts come to some beneficial outcome, not just for me but for those I interact with. I am blessed with all that I’ve sent out coming back to me multiplied in wonderful ways.
Life is definitely what you make it. If you choose to sit on your ass and wait for others to bring you what you want, you will only receive what they want for you. Better that you get up, do something to remedy your life circumstances and go get what you want, need and desire. Set some intentions, follow your heart and take action toward your goals and dreams.
Spend time with friends and family. If there are rifts, figure out a way to mend them. Separation only brings further separation. Take a chance, make a call, knock on a door. Maybe it will open, allowing you to mend broken or damaged relationships. Time is passing on swift feet. You cannot go back, forward is the only way.
You will never know how another feels until you ask them. If you approach them with kindness and compassion, you might surprise them and catch them off guard. How they answer will depend on you being open to hear whatever they have to say. If they answer with an openness you didn’t expect, go with the flow and receive what comes to you. If they haven’t grown enough to listen, thank them and walk away.
It’s your life. You do not have to put up with people that can no longer meet you where you are now. A lack of support is also a lack of respect. Take all that you have learned and move forward into the life you want filled with people who are truly there for you on all levels, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Fill each day with the best of who you are, giving and also receiving that which life brings to you. Give thanks for all that you are and all that you have. You have been given a life, not to squander but to share all the gifts and talents that are yours.
Go forth and prosper in all ways, shining the light for the benefit of all beings.