LIVING WITH THE NOT-KNOWING
So many questions, not near enough answers. Do I really need to know, or can I just accept the way it is without wanting more than this? Do we build our ability to trust in our divine plan by accepting the not-knowing?
If I accept the way that the situation is at this moment, does that release my resistance to it? I know that the more I resist something, the more I create more of the same situation in my life. How do I get the acceptance out of my head and into my heart? The resistance will remain until find acceptance in my heart. I do know and understand this aspect of what I am trying to reconcile in my mind and heart. Maybe I just need to reconcile it all in my heart and leave my mind out of it.
My ego continually seeks ways and thoughts to keep me from self-actualization. The ego will do anything and everything to keep me dependent on it for information. How do I tell my ego that I don’t want to destroy it or remove it? All I really want is for it to take a back seat in my life and just observe without judgement for a while.
There are many things each day that I have no fore knowledge about. I drive to a destination without knowing for sure that I will arrive safely. I take this for granted from my experience of arriving safely many, many times. I wake up each morning without wondering the night before if I will wake up. I expect to wake up each morning and so far, I have. If I really considered my day, I’m sure that my ego would chime in with a comment about everything I plan to do.
If I have so much faith in my ability to survive each day, why can’t I accept the not-knowing part of some situations in my life? Is it because I haven’t experienced these situations enough to know that everything will work out for my benefit? Why do I allow them to concern me? Is this where my faith falters when it serves me so well most all the time? Are these situations challenges to my faith, to allow me to experience the not-knowing either in doubt or faith?
These moments of not-knowing are helping me to grow spiritually. I understand this now. The lessons are meant to stretch me into greater knowledge of myself, of how I react or choose to react when I seek for answers where there seem to be none. There are things I am not meant to comprehend until the time is right. Faith is required to keep moving forward in spite of the not-knowing. Faith is accepting and allowing a higher power, that of my Creator, to work beyond my vision to align what I think I want with what I truly need.
May you be blessed with unwavering faith, knowing that all is happening for your continued growth as a spiritual being.
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