Attachment to the outcome of any situation that is beyond our control leads us into disappointment. Disappointment takes us down a variety of vibrational energies; sadness, depression and fear are a few of these emotions. This movement of our energy into a descending spiral of our uncontrolled emotions happens rapidly. Unless we are aware of our change in vibration from one of expectancy to one of depression, our vibrational energy is lowered before we realize what happened.
Rock bottom is where we begin to doubt our self. The ego mind wakes up and really begins the assault of personal shame. “Wow! I can’t believe how dumb you were to believe that would happen.” “Thinking the truth would actually come out.” “I tried to tell you.” We actually find validation for of these comments that are meant to control us.
The real shame is when you begin to listen and believe what the ego mind tells you in the dark of the night. The voice gets increasingly personal, going back to the choices you’ve made, zeroing in on all the wrong ones. Every bleapin’ one of them! Humiliation settles in your stomach, churning what’s left of your dinner.
You have entered your own personal hell. It’s 3 am. You can’t go back to sleep but desperately want to. You’re feeling distressed and on the verge of tears. By now your mind has ceased its endless tirade of your bad decisions. You barely notice it has shut up a bit. Your thoughts have taken over as you remember vividly most of these decisions. The wrong job. The wrong guy or girl. The wrong answer on an important test. The wrong turn down a one-way street. The wrong comment to your in-law.
One, two, three, four you say as you visualize sheep jumping over a fence. Five, six, seven, eight, nine………? Oh shit! You began to drift off but you forgot the next number and woke yourself back up. You start over at the beginning. Somewhere between fifteen and twenty, you fall asleep. ZZZZZZ
Attachment and disappointment are the frequent cause of insomnia. How many nights have you spent hours lying awake in bed, when you could have been sleeping? The easiest way to get a goods night sleep is to exercise non-attachment and affirmations. One affirmation is to remember that everything is going according to divine plan. Another is to realize your outcome wasn’t going to happen to begin with and something better will occur. One more you can use is that you can’t do anything about what’s happening in your head at 3 am.
Acceptance and over-coming this situation takes some work, mostly remembering the truth of the three affirmations. In an attachment situation, repeat the the statements in your mind. Eventually you will arrive at a place of control. When the nighttime monkey mind starts to chatter, use the methods. If you have to repeat them, go ahead. Repetition creates a barrier to the ego’s destructive talk.
May your night be blessed with the peaceful sleep of babies. And so it is .