A Conversation with the Divine Mother
I was enjoying the comforting warmth of my bed in the early morning hours when I heard the voice of Mother Mary. This is the conversation we had.
Mother Mary: Release the struggle.
Me: What do you mean?
MM: The struggle is all in your mind. Let go of all thoughts of what you used to do in the past, all the things that once brought you immense joy. The time for those things is past. You are entering a brand-new time in your life, a time of experiencing opportunities that were not available to you before now.
Me: It’s been so long, so many years of doing what had to be done. Along the way, I lost so many things I had found pleasure in. Now I don’t know what gives me joy anymore. I feel stuck in a twilight zone of emptiness and inability to fill this void in my life.
MM: The emptiness you are feeling gives you the motivation to explore how you want to experience a joy-filled life once more.
Me: I have tried various routes to return to joy this past year. None of them has brought me lasting pleasure. The one experience that always brought me joy and a feeling of peace is to be out in nature. I want to return to the wild spaces that still exist and commune with the trees, rocks, birds, animals and most of all, Spirit. I miss walking with Spirit in this way. Because my knee is still healing from surgery, I cannot do this yet.
MM: Allow yourself this time to heal on every level, body, mind and spirit. The new life you are craving is being woven for you. For now, release the internal struggle. Find the hidden joy in each moment.
Me: Thank you, Divine Mother, for all the excellent advice. I will become more mindful of living in the moment.
MM: Keep your heart open and reconnect with your inner child. She will help you find your joy again.
(For 29 years, I worked a job that slowly suffocated my spirit. During this time, my inner child retreated to her room and has refused to come out. I was in a form of self-imposed slavery to the all mighty dollar. Even now, almost a year after retiring, the effects of this trauma still haunt me. It’s time to reconnect with my inner child who was allowed to run wild and free in Nature. I am ready to join her once again.)